Not from here

My whole body went limp.  I was four maybe five, and I had just realised the enormity of where I was.  A film of memories twinkled in.  I was not from here, my family had just left me here for a while. Previous times I would observe the planet, a beautiful planet with pristine rare beauty but clouded with dark manipulative forces. This place was nothing like home. I wondered why I agreed to this, I would never had.  How did this happen, it must be some mistake.  I tried to reason why I had this whole other life I existed in and now I was stuck here, and for how long, and for what reason was this suicide mission.  I remember thinking how much longer it would take until I returned home and the reality of 3D in the physical body hit me... It would be a while, I was still only a kid.